"Happy Birthday. It's a day late, but happy birthday anyway.

And no, I didn't forget your birthday.

Two years before, if you were still in Singapore, I would've been celebrating it with you. Two years from then, just two years plus all that distance, the friendship between us that was once so strong and so unbreakable, is broken. You were my best friend, but now there's not so much as a "hi" coming from you anymore, no more late night conversations, you don't confide in me anymore, and you don't even need me around. This is why I tore apart from you -- because you don't need me.

In case you didn't know, I read your blog everyday. Just to keep up.

The reason why we're like that right now, was it because of me? Or was it because of you? Or were we all to blame? Were you the one that stopped talking first, or was I? Is it, or is it not because of the physical distance? Then again, maybe........ our friendship just wasn't strong enough. Of course, all that aside, I'm fully-aware that I was a complete ass last time.

So if it's not too late, I know I've said this before but I'm gonna' say it again, I'm sorry.

But the day you let go, I let go too.

We both moved on.

Out of sight,out of mind.

Feelings disappear.

Things change.

But this doesn't: happy birthday, I love you.

I wish you all the best forever.

PS: I know you're reading this. "

Desiree Loke Sau Mun,

I miss you loads ><
I miss you like I never before
I'm sorry
I'm really sorry
I'm really really sorry
I never should have let go
Now I miss you
And its too late

I miss all the times we had
I really do
Strawberry kisses, freaking out over the Billabong pencilcase, taking neoprints, trying to cut chinese tution, bitching about stuff..
I still have the pencilcase
And I always will
I'm sorry Desiree
I love you too, and thank you.